Song of the Week #2: She Went Quietly- Charlie Winston

Was gonna rant on something but I don't have the time to fully write it, I'll save it for tomorrow. So instead, I'll post another song. 

There's really not so much to tell
She was 29, showing signs of doing well
For herself
She never spoke of feeling sad
Was, oh, so close with the family and friends she had
Around her

But she went quietly
She didn't make a sound
She went quietly
With the wish not to be found
She went quietly
Without a word of where
Just a note that wrote
"Forgetting is easier"

Years have follen since the day
She wrote the note and chose to float away
Into the ether
Someone said they saw her south
At the coast, on the river's mouth
But only briefly

'Cos she went quietly
She didn't make a sound
She went quietly
With the wish not to be found
She went quietly
Without a word of where
Just a note that wrote
"Forgetting is easier"

But she went quietly
She didn't make a sound
She went quietly
With the wish not to be found
She went quietly
Without a word of where
Just a note that wrote
"Forgetting is easier"

Out of the blue in the pouring rain
To my doorstep, old and cold, today she came
With her story
I asked her in but she declined
Had just one single thing to get off her mind
And that was "Sorry"

I See Nothing Worse Than to Sail This Universe Without You

I don't know how to say this. There's a difference, a huge difference and I didn't notice it until yesterday. I sorta had forgotten how truly happy you make me feel (maybe because of that mess I created and even before) but I was reminded of that back when we had our video chat yesterday. Others don't come close to the joy you bring me. You don't know how difficult it was to sleep that night, I wanted to to be with you so much longer. I know I've probably made you feel at your worst and even lonely for a while. I say that because that was what I went through. I apologize for all that. I'm both lucky and grateful to still have you in my life. I'll probably have to do more explaining later but know that I'm yours, I will always be yours.

note: this is for the man I love

Song of the Week: The Paper Kites- Bloom

In the morning when I wake
And the sun is coming through,
Oh, you fill my lungs with sweetness,
And you fill my head with you.

Shall I write it in a letter?
Shall I try to get it down?
Oh, you fill my head with pieces
Of a song I can't get out.

Can I be close to you?
Ooh-oo-oo-ooh, ooh
Can I be close to you?
Ooh, ooh.

Can I take it to a morning
Where the fields are painted gold
And the trees are filled with memories
Of the feelings never told?

When the evening pulls the sun down,
And the day is almost through,
Oh, the whole world it is sleeping,
But my world is you.

Can I be close to you?
(Ah) ooh (aah), ooh (aah)
Can I be close to you?
(Ah) ooh (aah), ooh (aah)

Can I be close to you?
(Ah) ooh (aah), ooh (aah)
Can I be close to you?
(Ah) ooh (aah), ooh (aah)

Can I be close to you?
Ooh, ooh.

First Solitary Trip

Me waiting at the Meadowview Station,
in my awesome pink sneakers <3

It was nice to spend today alone by myself, away from the usual home, school, family and friends. As I had written from the last post, I decided to explore part of my town (Sacramento) with the public transit system. I set out late in the morning and started from the station closest to my home. It was actually rather quiet and empty there.

It's not anything new, I've ridden the transit and buses here many times before. I just haven't done so alone nor taken time to enjoy it fully. There is one thing that I would complain about Sacramento's transit system, it doesn't run on a concrete time schedule. It leaves the transit's arrival time to be random and means that you could end up waiting half an hour to an a hour for your train due to delays: the weather, slow downs, or even laziness from the conductor. Other then that, it's a decent way to get around town.

My stop, downtown K Street.

There were many stops along the way but I decided to get off on K Street based on whims. This street's very close to my heart, it's filled with so many childhood memories. I remember going here for music concert performances in middle school, high school civic/cultural assignments and fun hangouts with friends. It's a very beautiful street and surprising very calm and tranquil for being in the middle of the city. I walked down more, taking pics of the shops that line the street(new and old).

The Old Crest Theater

Cathedral of Blessed Sacrament

This is my favorite picture.
Yes it's taken right in the middle of the street but there wasn't any traffic despite the green traffic light.

So I continued down until I reached the end of K Street, which was the Sacramento Convention Center. I remember attending a Greek festival there with friends in my junior year of high school. Which has got to be one of the most random thing I did that year. It  hasn't changed at all, except for the blue trunk trees that seemed to have been painted recently. 

I turned back around and headed west onto a different street, it took me to Downtown Plaza (a little strip mall). It felt so nostalgic walking through. Many of the stores I remember as a kid weren't there anymore (where's the old candy shop?) but the fountain, elevators/escalators, color, art and the layout of the place was the same as it were before. I walked above on the second floor and watched an alter/rock band play from below. It was exactly at the same place I had performed twice with my school's band in middle school. 

I had lunch and kept listening while I thought about the trip: where I traveled and everything I saw. As I continued thinking, I slowly got consumed by a kind of loneliness. I was thinking of someone, how wonderful it'll be to spend it with him. I'll get used to the lonely feeling, cause I'll probably need to. If I can't, I'll just drag a friend along with me and make it a couple or group trip. I didn't stay too long and headed back (taking the transit back home). I think I'll explore more of Sac and maybe even go to the next city Folsom. That'll be for another weekend though. 

Even Castles Turn to Sand Someday

I want nothing yet I want everything. Why do I yearn for things that I can wait out on or rather yet, just go without for now. Maybe it's because I'll lose it forever if I don't hold on and might never get another chance for it. I know, I'm thinking too much again. 

Moving on to another topic, it's time I start exploring the places here with my universal buss/transit pass. I might as well use it since I have it. I'll take a camera with me and might put up the pics up on this blog. It'll be like my own little adventure.

Humans Have a Knack for Choosing Precisely the Things That are Worst for Them

When I'm given choices or just simply come across a situation in which I have to make a decision, I like to imagine the sets of scenarios that's likely to come from the choices that I make. Sure I don't know everything and that things might not even go accordingly to what I had imagined but it's my way dealing with my indecisiveness. And god am I indecisive... I guess I just don't know what it is I want at the time or know what's good for me. I've noticed that things can get pretty messy because of it. What is my problem? Just choose woman!

Letters to You

Dear Mister Capo,

Why is it that you seem to disappear when I need you most? I don't know why you hide so often. I always go back looking for you, especially at the places that you and I had spent most together but you never are there. 

I wish someone could create a device that would track anything that you wanted to be tracked. That way, you'll always know where to find things. You might never truly "lose" anything. If that were the case, I wouldn't lose you so often. 

Yours Truly,
Luvyduv

P.S. Blame it on my memory problems.

Blue Roses Falling

Rain. Lots and lots of rain. I haven't slept through a morning like this in a long while, it feels foreign. The air is cold and there's still a continual drizzle outside. I wish there were words to explain how exactly I feel right now. Almost lost in a sense. 

I've updated the blog, gonna try to keep posting as much as possible. Meh, not sure if I like the font but it's plain enough.

Song of The Week: Years Around The Sun- Miles Away

we watch the light 

as it set from the sun

all the ways we could run

all the ways we could run

oh my, can you see the light

from outer space?

what was said what was done

as the time had a ride

all the ways we could run

all the things we could try

oh my, could you tell me 

where this is going to lead?

and all the lights are shining on the sea

as the rolling waves crash along the beach

and our minds were meant to sail

take a rest from our thoughts

take a brake from this world

and we'll feel miles away

from the places that we used to be

as we lay in the sand

and we stare at the sky

watch the moon dancing why

as the stars latch your eyes

oh my, there's no place on earth i'd rather be

in my eye this night just don't feel real

but i can feel your touch

promise you won't let go

and our minds were meant to sail

take a rest from our thoughts

take a brake from this world

and we'll feel miles away

from the places that we used to be

and our minds were meant to sail

take a rest from our thoughts

take a brake from this world

and we'll feel miles away

from the places that we used to be